A Wonderful Life Page 4

  Sung-Hui stood up and went to the window, staring out into the dreary whiteness that enveloped the outside world. She wasn’t a fan of the snow or the cold, but she respected its power. Many storms had passed her way in the years before this one, although she had to admit that the intensity of this particular storm was stronger than any she remembered.

  Tossing another log onto the dying flame, she moved her recliner closer to the fireplace and continued reading. Half an hour later, she fell asleep with her book and woke up in the early morning just in time to re-feed the fire with more wood.

  After dressing and eating a small breakfast of cold cereal without milk because she had forgotten to get milk the day before, Sung-Hui walked back to the convenience store to finish her shopping. As she walked down the snowed-over street, she steadied herself over slippery sheets of black ice and took it slowly; she only had to fall once to know how dangerous black ice could be. But she only made it around the next corner when she came across a mass of white in the middle of the street that covered what was obviously a car. Curiosity getting the better of her, she walked slowly to the hulking mass and brushed off the powdery snow from the windshield to reveal hardened ice underneath. She wondered how someone could just leave his or her car in the middle of the street and not even realize it.

  She stared at the white, caked snow and ice and figured that she had come this far, having crossed into the middle of the street where the car was, so she pulled a hanging, broken branch from a tree and used it to scrape away at the windshield’s ice until she could see underneath it. Her eyes opened wide as she looked through the windshield and saw the lifeless face of Rebecca staring up in almost disbelief at nothing in particular. The dead woman’s right hand was still clutching the ice-cold key in the ignition. Her left hand was on the door handle in what looked to Sung-Hui to be the upper position to open the door, even though the door was sealed by ice that probably froze quickly during the previous evening’s storm.

  “Oh my,” was all Sung-Hui could think of to say, even though she felt the situation demanded more words from her. She turned to continue her trek to the convenience store. There was a phone there that could be used to call someone.

  A block later, she came across a mass of people hovering around an ambulance that still had its red lights flashing, throwing red shadows across the snow and then disappearing for an instant before causing the shadows again in a mood of morbid, disco fascination. Sung-Hui moved closer to contact one of the paramedics about Rebecca, but as she did, she could hear people talking.

  “Such a shame, too,” said one woman. “He was so young.”

  “I thought he had tire chains on,” said an unknown voice.

  “He did,” replied another voice with much sadness. “That was the problem. The chains broke and wrapped around the axle. They say it was instantaneous. He was probably dead before he even realized he hit the parked car.”

  Sung-Hui walked over to the ambulance and found one of the paramedics. He took one look at her and motioned for her to keep moving. “Sung-Hui,” he said, knowing her from the many stories told around the station house about the poor, simple girl everyone was told to look out for, “this is no place for you.”

  Sung-Hui nodded. “Sir, there’s a car up the street with a dead woman in it. I think she froze during the night.”

  The paramedic nodded and went for his radio microphone. After thanking Sung-Hui for reporting the information, he watched her leave, continuing her journey towards the convenience store.

  “Who was that?” said a woman who overheard the conversation.

  “Just a simple girl,” said the paramedic as he turned back to the radio.

  “Poor girl,” was the woman’s response.

  THE END

  THE ALIBIS OF SAINTS

  You ask me why I’m here…as if I really belonged anywhere else. Look around you, at these four walls. What do you see? Do you see the concrete walls and the cage door with the guard on the other side of it? Do you think that guard cares why I’m here? When he goes home late at night, do you think he greets his wife at the door and says: “That poor woman was given such a bum deal.” Of course not. People like him don’t sympathize with people like me. When they sentenced me to life in this…place…do you think they really cared about what I thought? So, why should you now?

  During the trial, they told me I was a list of achievements:

  First woman to play on the baseball team.

  First woman to graduate 2 in her high school class…even gave the Salutatorian speech and all.

  Respected by her peers.

  Hated by her competition.

  They said there was nowhere this woman wasn’t going to go.

  So why am I here? Why did this successful woman suddenly go nuts and kill without provocation…as they claimed during the trial? I don’t know. Why don’t you tell me? All I know is what happened. And sometimes I wonder about that.

  I married David because he, like me, was on the fast track to collecting the whole world on a silver platter. He was so kind to me, so romantic and even so chivalrous. I was sure you couldn’t do better than that. For six years, we had the happiest marriage on the planet.

  But all good things weren’t meant to last now, were they?

  It was after we had our son that he started to grow distant. I thought it was my overactive imagination. I mean, I’ve been wrong before, and I was sure this was what was happening again. Then I started to notice more and more phone calls coming in the middle of the night from people who would just hang up on me when I picked up the phone and David saying he couldn’t talk whenever he picked up the phone. The first time I confronted him about this was the last time I confronted him.

  Some woman called and said she was calling for David. From the sound of her voice, I could tell she wasn’t calling for business. When I asked David about this, I didn’t get a denial or even an explanation. Instead, all I remember was the heat of his angered response and the first time his hand touched my face in a manner not resembling love.

  The next fifteen years are a bit of a daze for me. Michael was only four years old, so I knew he needed a family, and leaving David would only have destroyed that. I honestly believed things would get better if we just let time pass. Yes, the salutatorian of her school actually believed this. I guess once he realized he could get away with it, simple slaps changed to bruised hits and twice to broken limbs. Our bed wasn’t a welcoming place for either one of us, so he started coming home drunk more and more, and I stayed home and drank wine until our only communication was physical and in anger. Naively, I actually thought we were saving Michael from all of this by hiding it from him. He’s too smart a child to have ever missed what was really happening.

  But each time he hit me, I vowed that one day I would have my vengeance. Sometimes I told him that as he would pin me down and just keep hitting. He would laugh at me and tell me how the police could never protect me as he was a big shot lawyer now and all I was was a simple, stupid housewife. One night, after a very bad fight over something as stupid as what we had for dinner, I remember cowering on the floor as he stood over me saying: “Mary, you worthless piece of shit. I work all day long while you’re here goofing off and watching Soap Operas. At least you can do is make me something decent to eat. Or is that too much to ask from a drunk bitch like you?”

  Then he hit me one more time and went to sleep. I sat up all night, cowering on my side of the bed, realizing there was nothing I could do to stop this man from doing it all over again once he made up another reason.

  Someone once told me I was as guilty as my husband because I never left. It’s so easy to point a finger at someone but much harder when you’ve lived that life. I’m from a small town. We don’t have women protection services here; well, at least not back then. My court appointed attorney even asked me why I went out of my way to upset my husband when most of what happened was probably my fault anyway. This was the guy defending me.

  O
ne year after Michael went off to college, I stayed sober for the first time in many years. David was sleeping off his usual allotment of beer in our bedroom when I grabbed a carving knife from the kitchen and went into the bedroom.

  I crept slowly across the room, expecting him to jump up at any time, knowing that once he was awake, I’d never have the courage or the ability to go through with it. He knew he was much stronger than me, and that’s probably why our fights ended up like they usually did, me injured and him going to bed satisfied. But he didn’t even move as I came over to his side of the bed.

  For a long time, I stood over the bed with the knife raised in my fist, thinking about what I was about to do. I wasn’t drunk. I wasn’t confused. For the first time decades, I had never had such clarity of thought.

  Then his eyes opened and he looked up at me with the knife in my hands. Right then and there, the bastard smiled. I might have expected a lot of reactions, including a fist in my face again, but not a smile. And I’ll never forget that voice of his at that moment: “Mary, even if you do it, it will never be over.” And then he started to laugh.

  So I plunged the knife into his chest and he died laughing. But he did die.

  So, you ask me why I’m here. I’d like to tell you I’m here because no one believed my story. But that’s not the truth. I’m here because they did believe my story.

  And I think that’s what scares them the most.

  THE END

  JERRY SPRINGER STOLE MY WIFE

  “I seen it! There I was just minding my own business, raking and hoeing, raking and hoeing just minding my own business when Uncle Jed comes up to me and says: “I thought you were supposed to be raking and hoeing.” And I said I was! I was just raking and hoeing, minding my own business when this huge light comes out of the sky and landed right over there in front of me, and these aliens get out with BIG green bug eyes and take away Uncle Jed, and I said….”

  Click.

  “I’m not just the Hair Club President. I’m also a client.”

  Click.

  “On today’s Springer: Men Who Steal Other Men’s Wives.”

  I just stared at the television screen as anger grew within me. “Yeah, you’re one to talk about that now, aren’t you, Jerry?”

  I can still remember how it all began, good ole’ Jerry standing on the stage, interviewing yet another oblivious individual: “You’ve been married for ten years now,” said Jerry. “Why don’t you give us a little background?”

  She and I met in law school. I was studying environmental law; she was studying criminal. Our first conversation was an argument over judicial review and constitutional interpretation of the due process law under the 14 Amendment, and neither one of us would budge. Between you and me, I think she was right. I fell in love with her right then and there.

  Jennifer used to love that show. I don’t know why. But I remember once sitting beside her as this poor sap started talking it up with Jerry: “Well, Jerry, we’ve been together since high school, so I’m pretty happy about this relationship.”

  “Well, David, it sounds like you and Becky-Sue have a wonderful relationship together. Now, Becky-Sue, is there something you want to tell David?”

  Becky-Sue: “Yes, Jerry, I’ve been seeing another man.”

  And then I think it went something like this, although I can’t give an exact play by play. Jerry said: “Without further adieu, let’s bring out Becky-Sue’s other man, her new boyfriend Raymond, a professional wrestler better known as Deathstalker.”

  I seem to remember lots of cheering from the audience and a very frightened guy who only seconds ago thought he had it all.

  Jennifer and I had one of those fairy tale romances…at least it felt that way to me. We were married for ten years, and we didn’t seem to have any more problems than any other couple. We were talking about having kids, and that’s when it happened.

  Dr. Jenkins: Robert, please sit down. I don’t know an easier way to say this, so I’m just going to come out and say it: Jennifer has breast cancer.

  Robert: What exactly does that mean?

  Dr. Jenkins: The culture came back positive. I sent in a second sample for verification, but it also came back positive.

  Robert: I asked you a question: what exactly does that mean?

  Dr. Jenkins: There’s more, Robert. I’m sorry, but it’s already spread to the lymph nodes. I have to be honest with you. It doesn’t look very good. I’ve seen some women bounce back after chemo and live long, productive lives. But once it’s hit the lymph nodes, anything can happen.

  Robert: Does she know?

  Dr. Jenkins: She suspects, but I thought you might want to be there when I tell her.

  Dr. Jenkins was right. After Jennifer returned from chemotherapy in the hospital, she was weakened and didn’t seem very healthy. And then it just got worse. One chemo session after another, and they weren’t helping. We both knew it, but we never mentioned it. She quit working and stayed home, staring at that TV. And it always seemed to be the same show, too, even though she would always change the channel if she noticed me in the room, knowing how much I hated that show.

  “Okay, Vicky,” went the dialogue in another episode, “so you’ve been having an affair with Sandy who says that she really loves Marilyn and her gay lover Brooke. Doesn’t it bother you that your husband of ten years has to stay home every night and take care of your four children?”

  “Naw, Jerry, it doesn’t. Just cause I’m a married mother doesn’t mean I shouldn’t be able to have a little fun in my life.”

  There were days when I’d hide in the other room and watch her sitting on the sofa, watching that show. It seemed to be the only time when she had any life to her. Other times, she’d just sit across from me at the table and eat silently, making a comment here or there, but it was like she had already died. I tried to make her comfortable, to make her smile, to…to…to be there for her, but it was like I wasn’t even there.

  Okay, I didn’t completely hate his show. I did like the interviews in the audience: “Okay, you over there, I’d like to say “suh”. And you: whatever, and you: ch, and you girl, the girl next to the guy in the dress, you girl are never going to learn to respect yourself until you learn to respect yourself. That’s all I got to say about that.”

  After a couple of months Jennifer got really sick, and it was almost impossible to even get a word out from her. She would just sit there in silence and watch television, watching Jerry Springer and a bunch of low lifes who beat each other up on stage. I tried to talk to her, but it was like talking to a wall. One day that show was on, and I found myself staring at it in what had to be a morbid sense of fascination. I don’t remember the story, but people who hated each other were throwing chairs at each other, and the whole crowd was going crazy, as if it was the greatest thing they had ever seen. I was about to tell Jennifer to change the channel, knowing this couldn’t be healthy when I noticed that she was smiling. It was the only reaction I’d seen from her in weeks, and it was a smile. And then I realized it wasn’t me that made her smile; it was Jerry Springer. Jerry Springer and his violent show. And then I realized Jerry Springer stole my wife, and there was nothing I could do to win her back.

  Jennifer passed away in the middle of the night. I found her in bed, the TV still on and called the paramedics. She didn’t make it to the hospital.

  A couple of weeks went by and it just didn’t seem right. I’d come home from work, and I expected to see her there on the couch, watching TV, but there was no one there, and she was gone. It just didn’t seem right.

  Our friends…my friends now, tell me that I was lucky to have had the chance to be with her right up to the end, but how do I make them understand that she was never with me up to the end, that she was more interested in some controversial talk show than in her own husband? How do you tell someone something like that without sounding like some…well, I don’t know, like someone I wouldn’t want to sound like?

  I’m not a real T
V watcher. Don’t usually have the time. But one evening before going to bed, I was flipping through the channels and I came across the Jerry Springer Show. Immediately, I was going to switch to something else, but for some reason I found myself entranced by what was on the screen. It was the usual faire: three or four people were yelling at each other, and then one man picked up a chair and threw it across the stage, hitting someone who was having an affair with his girlfriend, or something like that. Then he attacked, and this major fight ensued for a couple of seconds before a bunch of Jerry’s thugs broke it up. This is why I don’t like this show; it’s too violent.

  But then I found myself just staring, and suddenly it all made sense. The guy who threw the chair made a statement about how he might never have had the chance to hit this guy if it wasn’t for Jerry’s show, and it all just made sense. I realized why Jennifer watched this show.

  I mean, Jennifer was an attorney; she and I used to both laugh at shows like this, but it suddenly made sense. Watching Springer, she could see as people were able to physically fight back. That was something she could never do. That disease ate away at her, and there was no chair to throw at it or any confrontation that could put it all out in the open. No, it dug away at her in silence, and she had to take it. For an hour a day, she could see people face down their enemies and in true trailer trash fashion, escalate it to physical violence.

  It was something she could never do. Jerry Springer didn’t steal my wife; he gave her a reason to continue. He gave her what love and medical science never could.

  I’m not even sure this makes sense.

  THE END